Strange Thoughts

Is coming to the end of the year... It has been quite a while I have not come in... which is a good sign.. most of the time, i only came in when i am sad..

Many changes along the way.... but most of them are acceptable... But recently, just these 2 days, something strange happen... Really strange and barzar... i got to write it down... i got to know someone online... he appears to me to be someone full of love... looking for someone to shower his love... but after a while, just a few hours difference, he changed... he even accused things that i have never done... it really gives me a creepy feeling..

I decided to drop him a mail, wanting to know what is really wrong... but he started to call me names... really bad names... and curse me to the lowest, that I will be single forever, will meet an accident???? To think that he is a christian, isn't that against god??? I have never in my life, met someone like that... who is extremely mean in his words....

At first, i really thought he is having some emotionally down period... and give him chance to explain but he couldn't stop calling me names... and curse me... which makes me think he has a split personality... which creeps me further... so I decided to leave the conversation...

Some part of me really hate the whole thing that has happen... what have i done to deserve to be cursed?? i merely wanted to know someone more and all i got is a nightmare, it really is... i dont think i have done anything wrong in my entirely conversation with him... which makes me even more certain about him... he is extremely unstable emotionally, missed his family dearly, cannot have any rejections... But another part of me feels really sad for him... I think he is under a long journey of deprivation that makes him so emotionally unstable... too lonely perhaps?? but all i can say is his approach is totally wrong...

i always want to believe that all human are kind in nature... if they behave badly, it is all due to the experiences they have been thru, which is the sadest part of life as most of it are uncontrollable...