I am glad that I send him the message... he din reply at all... sometimes i wonder if he is ashamed and thats why he din reply or he simply bo chap and ignore and delete my msg... whatever is the reason, it is already not impt... it makes me think that this should be the end of the whole thing.... Perhaps all these while, it was only me (again) who have been taking it soooo hard... whereby he is only gulity for a while and shortly, he recovers and carry own with his sweet life with her.... I should put it down too.... After that message, I doubt he will invite me to his wedding... which I would be more please cos I dun want to end up rejecting it...
I was watching American Idol result show earlier... It was my 3rd time watching the ending and I still cry... terribly in fact... I always like to 抒发情绪 esp to cry my heart out by ceaseing every opportunity... by seeing Scott being voted out from the competition is the best way for me to 借剧情大哭一场... but that is not only it... I am even more confirmed what i really want in life... that is to go into the unfortunate group and help.... only this will help me feel emotional again... i have always been a rational person where the heads rules... but i want to make my heart rules and make it live again.... I seems to be like dead man walking... haven't found the purpose in life... only this can makes me realise how fortunate i already am... i wish i can 1 day... that 1 day to achieve no more grumbling, comparing and be truely contented with what i have and who i am....
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at least you know what you want in life. I still don't.
ReplyDeletehey... u read my long story? U know hor.. After starting this job, then I realise how much i dislike the job... wrong choice again... So in order not to prolong the wrong choice, I need to make a stop and start all over again.. Wish me luck.
ReplyDeleteYes I read. Anyway, I think you are now still in your cycle of finding another stable job to last you for another 5,6 years or more, so don't think too much and jia you~. (Just don't go India and learn Yoga! wahahaha...)
ReplyDeleteHaha... U oso think like Wing? Tot I will go learn India Yoga?? Ya, what u say is very right.. I am still in the mist of searching for a stable and meaningful job that will last me long... I am not young le.. I also dun want to skip around like a teenager..
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