4th week in this company and all these while, I din know what I was doing... The boredom is killing me.... Every morning, I will check my mails and there is no mails... cos there is nothing for me to do... Everytime my boss wants to arrange a session to discuss things with me, she becomes busy again.... But as long she dun sit down with me, I will have no direction and I simply is a floating dead man... Gosh... I decided to end this..
Earlier today, I went to work as usual... Once again I dun have much things to do... I have finished 5 flow charts and wat is next for me??? It is everyday living without knowing what is next for me tomorrow.... My head starts to be so painful... partly due to the terrible weather these days... It spins and I started to see blackness in front of me. I think the boredom + weather is making me very sick... not physically, but mentally... no sense of meaning and direction...
So I have decided to stop this agony tomorrow.... And I shall start all over again... I know the journey is not going to be easy at all... But I want to feel alive again...
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